To love you more.

If only I knew.

2010-11-15T03:05:00.000Z

There are many thoughts in my head that Im unable to verbalize in words.

Argh, freak. Maybe i should get some sleep while i can.

You love me.

2010-10-10T19:39:00.003Z

Abraham knew his God. He knew that God will provide.

God will provide. Everything is okay. Everything is doing well.

"For the vision is yet for an appointed time and it hastens to the end [fulfillment]; it will not deceive or disappoint. Though it tarry, wait [earnestly] for it, because it will surely come; it will not be behindhand on its appointed day." - Habakkuk 2:3

You'll put me at the right place, at the right time.

Choices have consequences

2010-09-16T11:27:00.003Z

Hall. Work. Sleep. Outside life. Choose 2.

Sometimes it's not that you dont want, but you cant. But nobody will really understand your situation except for yourself.

I just think that what matters most is still how you feel inside - being true to yourself. Being true to what you think is the best thing to do at the point of time.

Hanging by the moment

2010-09-10T14:59:00.001Z

"The minds says no, but the heart says yes."

Annoying Things To Do On An Elevator

2010-08-29T13:22:00.001Z

1) CRACK open your briefcase or handbag, peer Inside and ask “Got enough air in there?”
2) STAND silent and motionless in the corner facing the wall without getting off.
3) WHEN arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to yank the doors open, then act as if you’re embarrassed when they open themselves.
4) GREET everyone with a warm handshake and ask him or her to call you Admiral.
5) MEOW occasionally.
6) STARE At another passenger for a while. Then announce in horror: “You’re one of THEM” - and back away slowly
7) SAY -DING at each floor.
8) SAY “I wonder what all these do?” And push all the red buttons.
9) MAKE explosion noises when anyone presses a button.
10) STARE, grinning at another passenger for a while, then announce: “I have new socks on.”
11) WHEN the elevator is silent, look around and ask: “Is that your beeper?”
12) TRY to make personal calls on the emergency phone.
13) DRAW a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers: “This is my personal space.”
14) WHEN there’s only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the shoulder, then pretend it wasn’t you.
15) PUSH the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile, and go back for more.
16) ASK if you can push the button for other people but push the wrong ones.
17) HOLD the doors open and say you’re waiting for your friend. After a while, let the doors close and say “Hi Greg, How’s your day been?”
18) DROP a pen and wail until someone reaches to help pick it up, then scream: “That’s mine!”
19) BRING a camera and take pictures of everyone in the lift.
20) PRETEND you’re a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the Passengers.
21) SWAT at flies that don’t exist.
22) CALL out “Group hug” then enforce it.

Love is undeniable

2010-08-27T17:42:00.002Z

Hellooooo it's not tht I dont wna update. It's just that i have so much to say, I dont know where to start. So, I dont start. Hahahha ok lame. But really :)

To the people who still read this space after my being phantom, hahah Im in NUS FASS now :) and I live in Kent Ridge Hall! I think I am happy where I am now :) Afterall, both FASS and KR are my first choice :) The few months before school officially started has been filled with camps and more camps and me being tanner and tanner :/

So now that school has officially started, I wouldnt say that the workload is heavy (yet). But hall activities can be crazy :/ Maybe it's just cause of the ongoing IBG which will end this sunday (Thank God). I mean, I like IBG but it is tooo busy! So right now, I'll go back to hall on sundays and go back home on either fridays or saturdays :) Living in hall makes you miss home alot. And you'll really learn to appreciate whatever little time you have with your family. :)

I attended THE FALLEN musical today! And according to junyan, it is "flawless". Hahahaha what a praise rightttttttt :) Ahhhhhhhh ok I love today :) And Im tired gdnight :D

2010-07-31T22:08:00.003Z

It's like everything today just supernaturally fell into place! Like really, so effortlessly. Restful increase, indeeeeeddddd. Thank You :) :) :)

Metamorphosis :)

2010-06-09T17:27:00.002Z

Vany just said that i used to look like a slut. Hahahah thanks!!!! -.-

Heh heh heh original length of my fringe :) :) :)

Andddddddd Im also doing my best to get used to my new look! hahahaha the stylist said that I look like I just walked out from those jap magazinessssss lol. My mum loves my hair and I think I look too...... HAHAHAHAHA ACT CUTEEEEE V(^.^)V

LOL LOL Buttttt I guesssss I finally look different? After having the same old side swept fringe since sec 1 (!!!) :) :) :)

And amazing

2010-06-07T18:31:00.003Z

I came to realise that, everyone is beautiful. Really. If you just open your eyes to see, open your ears to hear, and open your hearts to feel, you will realise that, too. :)

You are beautiful :)

Ive got your back

2010-05-14T20:53:00.002Z

Hello again to you :)

Smile yea? :) :) :) You can make it through. Yes you can do it. I just know :)

I need to know - Kris Allen

2010-05-08T18:56:00.005Z

I just... hope it would be worth it this time.

Someone once told me that people might forget what you tell them and maybe even how you look like. But they will never forget how you make them feel. It's so true.

It's so difficult to even put this in words. Like the line is not drawn and nothing's said &Im hoping like it definitely will happen. Like what I always do. Like being overly optimistic. As ironic as it sounds, it is my downfall. I hope too much, then fall too hard. The visage of you in my mind is fading away, undeniably. But the way you made me feel, is still crystal clear.

I don't know, to you it could just be a day. But to me, it was a day which made a HUGE difference. I thank God for that day, for the screw ups that happened (or I wouldnt have met you), for making me feel excited to attend tht event even though I didnt want to initially, for making you just stupidly agreed to your friend asking you to join that event and just for ... everything that happened :)

I'm usually egoistic and hate (like really HATE) talking to people (i like) first, even if it kills me so bad, even if this mind game depresses me. But. I. Laid. Down. My. Pride. So. Many. Times. And it amazed even myself.

And I hate talking about the person I like so publicly. But. Im. Doing. It. Right. Now. Maybe I will feel stupid tmr and remove this entire post. Maybe I wont. I dk. We'll see.

But for now, I've never been so afraid of hoping...

Till then, ♥ :')

If it's real, we'll make it through :)

2010-04-28T16:51:00.003Z

Today was tough. It was unbearable. It was heart wrenching. It was ... to build me up.
So today, Ive grown stronger and better. And every tear I shed, I know that it was for my good :)

Even though it sucked, thank You Daddy, I survived it and everything's so much better right now :)

Because I know You will uphold me with Your hand in the coming days :) :) :) I will not fret or fear what happens tomorrow because "Nothing comes my way that has not first passed through the filter of Your love." :) :) :)

Fearless.

2010-04-25T14:39:00.002Z

Im 18 (going on 19). Im not young anymore. This time, Im going to fight for what I want. Im not going to chicken out anymore.

Zen, this is for you:

And I know that it's not going to be easy but....

In fact it really is going to be difficult - the mental warfare, the heartbreaks that are to follow. But right now, just enjoy the ride :)

My yoke is easy, my burden is light. Because it's going to be on Him. If it's for me, it will be. :):):)

Feeling it?

2010-04-23T17:36:00.001Z

SO CUTEEEEEEEEE HAHAHAHAHA :D :D :D

Tick tock on the clock.

2010-04-23T05:49:00.001Z

Count down

2010-04-22T18:05:00.002Z

Do it, really :) :)

Dont forget to breathe slow. :)

2010-04-22T10:44:00.001Z

It's like a bit of faith, a little of hope, a tad of fear but a lot of joy.

Please do not let history repeat itself? :)

Hello, my new fav :)

2010-04-20T15:49:00.003Z

For me.

2010-03-28T18:43:00.001Z

Tonight got me thinking, about how i let my guard down so easily, and how I could have been hurt. But I thank God that I am so blessed that You are always there to stop things before things screw up :)

You love me with an everlasting love, and that is the only love I need :) Thank You Daddy, for loving me first :)

FASS!

2010-03-15T16:34:00.002Z

Hellllllo this place has been abandoned for long. I wanted to change to tumblr but I cant find a skin that I like, so I shall postpone that idea.

Anywayyyyyyyy, Im still doing camps and Im loving it! :)

OHHHHHHHHH I bought a new ipod touch! :D Ok, technically, I didnt buy it. My dad did, It's my birthday present! :D From last year (dec). HAHAHAHAHA. But stilllllllllll. Blessed la :)

So now Im waiting to buy my camera with my own pay! :D :D :D And ta-daaaaa here it is! Samsung ST550. Stop telling me that Samsung sucks and Canon is so much better!!!!! :( :( :( Show me a Canon camera with dual lcd screens! Dont have right!!!! :( :( :( Upset! Everyone is TRYING to dissuade me from buying my Samsung. But the reviews all said that it's not too bad, not too bad. So I should just follow my heart :)

So now the ultimate question is, which colour should I buy?! Im thinking of either the all black or the black and gold one! Which one better? :D :D :D

And there is the A level results which everyone is concerned about. So, I did okay. Like ..... okay lor. Not awesome. But graced enough to go places, I think :) :) :) And Im aiming for FASS (AMEN!) :) :) :)

Yea, it's late and Im tired! Goodnight!!!!!

How are you? For real.

2010-03-01T17:51:00.003Z

Tonight, I'll cry. I'll cry my heart out. Tomorrow, I will become stronger.

I typed alot more. Then backspaced. Chickened out, again. How pathetic.

More than enough

2010-03-01T04:53:00.002Z

The Straits Times has just announced that MOE has declared this coming friday, 5 March to be the date for A level results to be released. With the tension rising, fear is coming in too. And I hate it. I hate this fear. It's bringing me down and undeniably, I am scared.

Then I realised, what have I got to fear? I am the child of The Most High! I will not succumb to fear, I will not be like the world. Instead, I will praise my Abba for the battle is fought and WON!!

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope" -Jeremiah 29:11 (NKJV)

This is His promise, it is written. So today, my friends, leave your fears behind. Step out and step up as we inch towards the results day with the full confidence that our Daddy has given us what He has promised!

All this while, I was not afraid. Not because I'm wow-so-strong-in-faith, no. But because I didnt even think about it. In fact, I ran away from thinking about results. The anticipation, the expectations on me, I might just crumble.

But now, my friends, let us all face this together. Not because we're wow-so-brave, no. But because our Daddy has promised.

"Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. " 2 Corinthian 12:9 (NLT)

Logically speaking, there is absolutely no point worrying. What's done cannot be undone, and worrying really does not help. Today, let go. Dont let your fears overtake you. Let go.....

"Therefore, my beloved brethren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your labor is not in vain in the Lord." -1 Corinthians 15:58 (NKJV)

Watching and learning :)

2010-02-27T07:14:00.003Z

Hello Cyberworlddddddddd :)

I just came back from camp yesterday! :) Ive been to many many camps before - p5 camps, sec 3 camps, OBS camps and of course the yearly church camps. But this camp was like no other. Honestly!!! It was beyond awesome :) It is probably because this time, my role in the camp is not as a camper, but as an Asst. Coach :)

Even though it sounds like Im there to lead and to impart to the kids, there is no doubt that Ive learnt so many things from them! To me, it was more of a learning journey than a job :)

And learning never stops :) :) :) Looking forward to my next camp next week!

Till then, see you :)

Restful Increase.

2010-02-22T19:05:00.004Z

David was annointed King even though he was far way with his flock when the next King was to be chosen. The same favour that was on David is still on me because He is the same ytd, today and forever! Amen :)

Tmr will be my very first camp - the camp which decides if I can stay in AK or not; the camp which decides if I can be promoted to a Coach and get my pay. And I shall now proclaim favour and grace over me and in everything that I do! Amen :)

Goodbye, cyberworld, for 3D3N :) I'll be back with good news. :)

Today, I found a potrait of you which I drew 2 years ago.

2010-02-13T19:42:00.003Z

But it doesnt matter anymore, does it?

Hello everybody :) Im here to update while waiting for my nails to dry :) (even though Im like really tired!)

But I er, got nothing to say except that I Passed my BTT! :) :) :) Yay! FTT next and I can drive already!! Plus mummy's gna install GPS on her car! Best! :) Hahahaha. Howeverrrrrrrrr, I calculated and I think I can only get my license around June/July?!?! So long lor!! :( :(

Yea, okay. That's all. Have a superb CNY and Vday everyone :)

You, really ah? :(

2010-02-09T17:04:00.004Z

Other than the fact that that is a tad (just a tad) depressing, I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT TODAY!!! :) :) :)

It all started off with going for my BTT E-trial tests, which I really have to boast, I GOT 100% for my second test!! And passed both!! HAHAHAHA Whoo hoooo.

I will do it again tmr! Amen! Tmr's the actual BTT :) :) :) Tmr Im gna psycho my daddy to buy my long overdued Bday present. Or at least remind him :D Hahahahaha.
Tmr night, Im going to eat dinner @Newton Circus!!! :D :D :D W Karen Eunice and Delia.

I got a feeling, that tmr's gna be a good day~~ That tmr's gna be a good good day~~~ Amennnnnnnnnnnn :) So exciting, tmr!!!! :D (No, actually it's today!!! It's past 12!!!)
(Omg, so reminds me of the Dawn Yang's video. "Im going to Sydney tmrrrrrrr. No, actually, in a few hour's time! *Wink wink pose pose smile smile*) LOL.

Okkkkkkk just very happy today. Oh, and today might even be my last day of work at BAB. Im not sure?

Soft Hugs Duck is gna be launched on 5 March!!! SO EXCITED!!! I like duckysssssss :D :D :D They're shoooooooooo cuteeeeeeee :) :) :) Hi Ducky. I might get you! :) Hopefully with discount :D

Ok gna bathe now! Toodles~~~~ :D :D :D

"Most cute guys are taken. Those who are not are gay" -Delia Ho

2010-02-05T17:12:00.004Z

Hello. The first part of today was crap. Honestly.

Context: Was at NUH doing this patient satisfaction survey at the clinics where people may have to wait for 1 or 2 hours for their turn.

I spotted my target. He was a man in his early fifties. As I approached him, I noticed that he was in a white T-shirt and a pair of glasses. The target gave me a frown and waved his hand towards me, indicating that he does not want to be disturbed. Having gotten the signal, I turned my back and glanced round the room full of impatient patients (Yes, a pun) for my next target.

"Eh eh, come back."

I made a 180 turn and walked back towards him.

"Actually what is it you want to ask?"

"Oh hi sir, Im actually employed by the NUH. They are conducting a Patient Satisfaction Survey. If you agree to help me with this right, an interviewer will call you back in about 1 or 2 weeks time for a short phone interview. Are you willing to help me with this?"

"What are you talking about?" Then, he turned and said something to his wife in chinese.

Thinking that his preferred spoken language is chinese, I translated what I was supposed to say in chinese.

His reply was the horror of horrors.

In an ultimately irritated tone and a wrinkled expression, he raised his voice, "I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR TWO HOURS. CAN YOUR SURVEY HELP ME WITH THAT?..............................." (Honestly forgot what else he said. But he definitely said a lot more. Definitely enough to catch every patients' attention.)

Already, that was bad enough. No actually, bad is an ultimate understatement. HELLO?!??!!?!? In the first place, it wasn't me who was sick. And it wasnt me who advised you to visit NUH. And I WANTED TO FREAKING WALK AWAY. YOU FREAKING ASKED ME BACK?!?!?!?!?!?! Okay, I dont like to swear but seriously, WTFUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!!?!?

He was not the only one who chided me that day. There were a few others before him who did that. Like him, they were all complaining about the waiting time. However, all they did was to nag a bit in a normal volume, which is alright by me. BUT THIS GUY. HELLO?!?!?!? Crazy dude.

What was worst was that I still had to pretend to not care about his freaking attitude. Still had to fake a smile and say "okay thank you" politely. Wth.

When I turned my back..........................wth. I can never forget how many million pairs of eyes were looking at me okay. No freaking body even my mum has shamed me like that in public. Wtf please.!!!!!!! It's really not my fault!

Unable to cope with the pressure at the moment and (you know, it's almost time of the month), I felt something stirring in my heart.

"No Zen, you cannot cry here. Not here. Do it when you walk out of this (freaking) long passageway. Not here. Dont drop a tear here. At all."

I tried my very best to suppress my tears. I cringed my face to help me with that.

Once I stepped out of the passageway (still filled with patients), I immediately teared. I dont know why. Im usually not this weak. But today was................ I really dont know. Is it the time of the month?

I walked towards the main lobby and sat at the resting area. Ive decided to take a rest from conducting surveys and so, plucked in my mp3. And I starting tearing again. (I was trying so hard to stop tearing but I just cannot!!!!) The couple opposite was obviously staring at me but I couldnt care.

Gosh, I cried for like................ I dk? How long. After deciding that I do not want to suppress my feelings anymore, I headed to the nearest toilet, went into the cubicle and cried my heart out. Felt much better after that :)

Love you, toilet :)

Stepping out of the toilet, I told myself, "You've already done 39 pieces. 11 more to 50! Go go!"

And Im proud to say, I completed 50 pieces of survey today :) Awesome. Like they say, when youre done with the crying, get up and move on. Thank You Daddy, wouldn't have done it without you. Definitely would not have the strength to continue if not for you :)
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WTH. Why do people hate to do surveys so much? It's only through surveys where things get to be improved okay. Freak that man.

And thank you, all 50+63 of you who agreed to do my survey! I love all of you so much :) Agreeing to the survey is an encouragement itself already. Just please pick up the phone for the phone interview! Thank you!! :) (Yea, like anyone of you will read this, but still.........thank you! :) )

So freaking not looking forward to working life.
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The second part of the day @Build A Bear, however, was really fun!! I love working on the weekends when the shop is busier and thus, alot livelier! :D

P/s: Read the title for this post :D HAHAHAHA

Down is the song to get high! :)

2010-02-04T14:40:00.006Z

I dont know, so many things on my mind but I really don't know what to say!

I want to do my nails but Build a Bear doesnt allow their staff to have their fingernails painted. :( Okay nvm, Im quitting after CNY anw. Not that the job sucks. But the schedule is just pathetic. And it results in my pay being ultimately pathetic. Im leaving for greener pastures :)

I was so afraid to tell my manger that Im going to resign at first. But her response was a complete shock to me. She laughed upon hearing about my wish to resign. HAHAHAHAH. Does she hate me that much!? I mean yea, I make little boo-boos here and there, and er, accidentally MIA-ed for work for a day. BUT, she shouldnt hate me that much, right? Hahahahah :)

Ok, hoping the guy (Azlan! I like his name! Reminds me of the lion from Narnia. ♥ ) from Innotrek will call me to go for the training camp soon :) We'll see.

So, it was Powerhouse for the first time yesterday night. Music was not bad. Crowd was better than Rebel. BUT Rebel is still the best place :) Pictures will be up later, when my internet connection decides to stop being a bitch so I can finally receive the remaining photos from Delia :) )

Heh heh heh, Delia helped me with the falsies ytd. Awesome man!! Falsies make your eyes look so.................... o.o But then again, I was telling Delia everyone looks the same. Eyeliner, falsies, contacts. So standard.

Like how I looked ytd.

But I really liked my eyes ♥ ytd (only with the help of the cosmetic lens, falsies and make up, of course.) :D

Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, Delia and I went to find Karen after Powerhouse!! Thank you Eunice for sending us there! :) Had Macs breakfast with her after her work! YAY :D :D :D ♥ ♥ ♥

After thatttttttttttttttttt we went allllllllllllllll the way to Pasir Ris to send Joel off to Tekong! And then I went home and crashed into my beddddddddddddddddddd without bathing. Ewwwwwwwww I know. But too mad tired!!!

Yea anyway my connection sucks so Im going off to bed now. It's waking up in the morn at 7 to do the NUH project till 2.30 tmr and then off to Vivo to work from 4 to 10.

DADDY, Thank you for the SUPERNATURAL STRENGTH!!!!!!!! Amen! :)

(omg it's the 4th Feb. My BTT trial is on 9th. I havnt even go to the web to do my e-learning yet!!!!! I GOT TO DO STH ABOUT IT SOON. LATEST BY SAT. OMG.!!)

Jay Bee!

2010-01-30T18:13:00.002Z

Hello everybody! Im a happy girl today! :D :D :D

Went to JB with my mum and her friends and bought a new bag (which Ive been eyeing on since FOREVER!!! Not kidding!!) , a BB cream from Etude House (Omg SO CHEAP! 50%!!) and coloured contact lens! Yay so happppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy HAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHA

Okay. Very tired now.

Anw, I was the worst employee on planet Earth ytd. I felt so bad. Omg I totally PONNED WORK!! Can you believe it? I woke up late. Wlaoooooooooooo So freaking irresponsible. Im sorry!!! :( :( :( Sucks la. Im not in school anymore, cannot like that already!!! Urrgh madly angry with myself ytd.

But that was ytd. Today Im happy!!!! And Im tired now! Good night!! :D :D :D

Im thinking two is better than one.

2010-01-28T14:48:00.013Z

Hello everybody! :) My life has been pretty............ I dk. Filled up? Hahahaha. Ive something on almost everydayyyyyyy - work or friends :) This holiday is so awesome. You have no idea how Im thankful for it :)

Anyway, I'll start blogging from last Sat. Because it was so awesome :) I love last Sat. We had this meet up with the guys and Jannah at Fish&Co. @The Glasshouse. :) Love them all all all :) Didnt take any pictures with the guys though! :(

Yeap, so I left after dinner with them while they go lan. Hahahahaha I think they played left4dead. SCARY LOR.

Met Karen, Delia and Eunice @Supperclub to kope their free drinks :D Because they have an event + free entry! Why not right! :D Anyway, we were not supposed to club that day!!!!!!! I really didnt want to ~! >: (
HAHAHA But beloved Karen is going to start on her "bitching" endeavors (like tmr!!!) , which means that she may not be able to club with us that often :( So we went...... :D

We left for Rebel after drinking hahaha. :) And got free entry ♥♥♥ Heh heh heh Kenneth :D Yay so happy!! I'm like getting high on air right now. HAHAAAHAHAH. I love Zirca/Rebel!!!! :D :D :D Alot! Really! :)

Anyway, I met church people there!!!! HAHAHAHA What a pleasant surprise! Really! :D Jon Seow and Gerv were there too, to celebrate the former's birthday.

Then Kenneth treated us Barcardi 151 shots without telling us it's alcohol percentage. HAHAHA SO FUNNY! I can still vividly remember everybody's reaction okay! He bought us a shot each, initially. (Not cheap! Each shot $20 okay! Crazy!!!!) But I took 2 in the end because Eunice and Delia shared a shot. Lol! Anw, it's 75% No joke okay!!! Burns! :D But I like it alot better than Tequila. Tequila so bitter!

Anw, I like this pic !!! :) :) :)

Yay! I think Im awesome! I wasnt even high lor! :D But Kenneth totally didnt believe that I wasn't even high -.- Okay whatever. I know Im like supaaaaaaa red but I dk why leh!!!!! I think it's the blusher. Yea. It is.

Just before one of them got wasted............ Guess who! HAHAHAHA. Not gna tell :)

Yeap so most of the night, we just stayed out and take pics till Eunice's "uncle" picked us up to her house! :)

Lester! :)

Reached Eunice's house and ate food from her spammed-with-food-fridge. How tempting!!!!

That's ham btw. :D She has this thing called Tartlets in her fridge which she claimed she didnt like. HAHAHAHA SO I WAS ULTRA HAPPY because I love it!! :D :D :D

And ya, basically her house is awesome la. Which is totally an understatement. And saying that that is an understatement is itself an understatement. Yea, you get what I mean. Seriously. Not kidding ok!!

We kind of also spent this Sun at her house because we woke up in the afternoon and were ultra mega hungry. Eunice's "uncle" went to buy Macs for us! Thank you!!!! :D :D :D Then we swam/soaked at her pool and had dinner at her house! Home after that.

Honestly, a memorable weekend :)

So, Monday came and I went work at Build A Bear. And then we went Timbre to visit Weena after that! :D :D :D Found a fly in my drink :( Hahahahahaha. Gross!! It was my first time at Timbre!! :D Love their pizza but........... after that, I was like half broke! :(

HAHAHAHAHA Supa grosssssss. But one of the waiters went to top up for me even though I requested for a change. Whatever man!

And you know what they say about people who can tie cherry knots using their tongue right? :) Heh heh heh. ;D

Tuesday was spent doing surveys with Sinzzz and Sween @Bugis where we met alot of funny people (generally Indians). Are all Indians of our age THIS FUNNY? HAHAHAHA

Wednesday! Worked from 12 to 8. My first consecutive 8 hours dedicated to BAB. VERY TIRING OKAY! My legs were totally aching! And I stupidly brought heels to club without considering the fact that I was working before that. Smart.

Ladies night!! Heh heh heh. After discussing for 100000000000000 hours. (Not kidding.) They finally decided to go Zirca/Rebel again. I mean I loveeeee that place!!! BUT I wna try other places!! :( But ok nvm.! I still love that place.

Eunice and her pri school friends :)

Nobody was wasted! :D Awesome! Actually of all the times we went, it was only that once which someone was wasted. And it wasnt even because of alcohol! Well done! :D :D I promise never never never to be wasted!!! Yucks lor!

Yea and I realise it's so unfair! :( Most of my pictures are of drinking and partying! Partying is not the only what I do ok :( :( :( It's just that I dont take pics when I do other stuff!! Also, the number of times I partied can be counted with two hands!! :D Okay. My life is so interesting now now now! :) :) :)

Im gna visit Karen tmr! :) :) :) Yay. But Im just gna say hiiiiiiii not gna club! Of course!! :D Yay exciting!! :) :) :) Ok bye!!!

2010-01-21T14:23:00.001Z

It was brutal. Yes, it was.

Hello.

2010-01-21T14:02:00.003Z

A million things on my mind nowwwwwwww but not to worry, Im not gna throw a pity party here.
Just that I did sth so stupid I could kill myself right now, or you can help me. Urghhhhhhhh honestly, WTHECK was I thinking!!

Sigh ok, what's over is over. I cannot undo what I did and I cannot take back what I gave sooooooooooooooo..................sigh.

And I went for an interview Im rather confident of getting through and if I did get through, I'll have another GIGANTIC problem which I totally do not know how to overcome. So tempted to type "fml" right now, but NOOOO!!!! :(

Daddy, You make it good in Jesus's name! AMEN!!!! :)

Hi Michael, you're the first person I served :)

2010-01-12T17:25:00.003Z

Michael is this 11 year old small Aussie kid who is really excited about going to High School. He said High school is scary. He was so cute. I wanted to ask him if he's excited to meet the High School girls like they always portray in Western movies, but I decided not to. His parents were around. But Im sure girlys would be attracted to him! :) He reminds me of Zack and Cody from The Suite Life.

He has 2 other brothers too. Everyone bought an animal. Michael's one was an ultra cute Chi Hwa Hwa named Gino and I helped him dress Gino up! :)

It is definitely the satisfaction felt when you see a smile on the customer's face. Michael's family came in the early afternoon, when I first started my shift and bought a bear for their aunt Grace at first. (Wow, revelation! First customer I served was buying a bear for Grace! :) :) :) ) After leaving the shop satisfied and shopping around Vivo for about 3 hours, they came back for animals for their own kids :) Evidently, they loved their first experience at Build A Bear :) And Im really happyyyyyyyyyyy :)

Thank You Dadddddy for the grace and favour that will bring me through my every single day, with every single guest and with every single task I do :)

Pawsome Pals :)

2010-01-11T15:49:00.004Z

Jannah was telling me how pawsome Build A Bear was when she went to visit it last Dec and IT ACTUALLY MADE ME AMAZED.

So I went to research on the bears and.........awwwwwwwwwwwwwww. So CUTE MAN!!! Im usually not the I-want-to-own-a-soft-toy person b/c I know that I will love it for 5 mins and chuck it aside forever. But working at Build A Bear (for a DAY) actually made me wna get a bear tooooooooooooo -.-

Anwwww I went to the US webby and take a look at what animals they have :)

Champs Bear!
This is my fav bear of the moment!!! :D :D :D And it's available in SG too!! Awwww so cute!! :) :) :)

Polar Bear!
Asst Store Manager said that this was available like winter last year, but is gone now. Awwww but it's soooooooo cute right? :D

Am so sure SWEENEY CHEN would loveeeee this BUT it's not sold in SG. Or at least it's not in PS or Habourfront outlet la. :D

Awwww this is seriously so girly and princessy and .........pinkish man. Small girls would LOVE it like crazy!

Adorable ELEPHANT!!!!! ADORABLE :D :D :D

Awwww 4 legged awesome QT!!!! :) :) :)

Ahhhh, have yet to serve my first customer. Today was training. Im excited but anxious. Hah :) And dont worry, Im not promoting anything here. I dont get a commission anw :) Just sharing how cute those furry friends are :)

First Day of workkkkkkkkkkk

2010-01-11T09:22:00.005Z

In my uniform, but evidently not holding a bear from Build A Bear.

First Day at Build A Bear Workshop was............. I dk? Nothing much, since Im still under training. But wow, guess it's not so easy after all. Alot of things to rmb and Great Expectations (Yes, that's the title of my Lit Book for A levels) to meet. Gonna need a whole load of grace! :)

Even though the manager seems strict and even though she picked on my hair and my shorts upon my arrival, I will still choose to believe that my Daddy has showered favour on me and there is going to be much grace wherever I work :)

She said the colour of my shorts is abit too dark. :( Okay, Im gna ask my mum to bleach it or sth :( ?it wont turn fully white, will it?

So anywayyyyyyyyyy, 2 people visited me today! So happy yay!!! :) :) :) Shawn came after checkup since he was around that area! :) And thank God for right timing because Jeg came, along with KiaBoon and Lumpy, just as I was about to leave the area. Seeing Jeg was completely unexpected and yayyyyyyyyyy Im happy!!! :) :) :)

Second day of work will be tmr. 4 hours only. How slack. And the rest of the week, Im not scheduled to do anything. Evidently, I need an additional job. Like tuition or something. Anybody? Wants me to tutor them? :D :D :D Feel free to email me! :D
languageoflove-@hotmail.com. (For real ok. Im not kidding!)

Oh hahahah and I messed up at the stuffing machine today because I forgot to switch the machine off and accidentally stepped on the pedal. So the polyesters flewwwwwww all over. Into my face, into my mouth, into my nose, on my shirt and duh, on the floor. Major snowing! So, I mild Asthma, how ah? Will affect not?

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Pictures from Cruise

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Hello I hope youre not dead

2010-01-10T15:28:00.002Z

I dont understand how or why someone can be so disgustingly despicable. You seem intellectual to me. Or at least your blog posts do. So why are you so gross and ... sigh ew. Pity my friend's your classmate. Thank God I've never been close to you. Or to be accurate, never been your friend. Thank God you were just an acquaintance. I just feel really sorry for my friend.

Seriously, the more I think about it, the absurd it is. I dont even know whether to feel complimented (IN A REALLY disgusting way) or to feel insulted. ARE ALL GUYS LIKE THAT?!?!! WHAT THE? Ok evidently, I got to chill. Take a breather. And STOP thinking about it.

(Btw LK, it's your friend Im talking about. You would probably know which one. :) )

Okay, those are random thoughts. It's funny what it took to make me come back to this blog. Somebody really gross. Okay, he's probably not that significant and whatever I typed till now must be nonsense to all readers (maybe except LK).

So I'll stop misleading people right now :)

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BLESSED 2010 Everyone! :)

How can I exclude that from my first post of the year, right?! :)

So yes, nothing much going on in my life right now except that Im gna start working at Build A Bear tmr. :) Hopefully won't see anyone I don't want to see. Cant think of anyone at the moment, but I know that when I see him/her, I will know :)

So okay, I'll end of with a few pictures and hopefully I will keep on coming back to blog :)

P/s: Okay, maybe I'll do the pics another day. Realised Ive been lazy to upload pics from my phone as well. So yea, bye LOL

Faith and Reality.

2009-11-11T04:35:00.002Z

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?

28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

-Matthew 6:25-34

What I written, Ive written. What's done for my exmas is done. I cannot redo it. But You can cause even my mistakes to flourish. And You can cause the examiner to favour my scripts. Therefore I choose not to worry but praise Your Name for I know Youve gone before me and have already provided for all my needs :) :) :)

:)

2009-09-20T18:21:00.001Z

"I'll press on towards the goal and reach for the prize, that I may know You more, fulfil Your call on my life, I'll forget what's behind me and look straight ahead, that Your hand always guide me, guide me to the very end"

No gifts, no wisdom, no glory to boast.

2009-09-19T16:28:00.012Z

Hey space. How are you! Been long since Ive updated on your page. People seem to forget you now. HAHAHAHA. But it's ok! I still luv you! :) <3

:) Because You will always come down to my level of faith. :) And You will lovingly assure and reassure me repeatedly when I lack in faith :) Because You are the most down-to-Earth (yes, literally and metaphorically) person that has ever lived/ will ever live. :) Today, You should me how every invention was made to glorify Your name :)

Thank You for today. I loved it :) And everyday will get better and better unto the perfect day :)

Thank You for my friends. Each and every one of them. :) And thank You for my family :) Thank You, for that is grace shown to me already :) I do not deserve them, but Youve surrounded angels around me :)

Thank You for the coming 2 months which will bring me closer to You, for You did not say that all will be smooth-sailing. But You said that when it's not, You ARE there for me :) Thank You that my future is already decided 2000 years ago when technology was unheard of, and blogging was impossible.

But in You ALL things consist and all things are made possible :) The world can argue about evolution and creation. But even science and technology, You've created them for our good. :)

Thank You for Your grace :) Thank You for Jesus :) Thank You for the many other things that I do not deserve, but You gave out of love anyway :)

Thank You for coming for the sinners, and not for the self-righteous. For the self-righteous have no need for You anyway :)

I figured I should save the best for the last. HAHAHAHAHA OKAY NO. JOKING. I figured people do not want to be welcomed into my blog seeing my face first! LOL

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I wanted to add thank you comments as captions for each picture I posted. BEFORE my sister came into my room to delete ALL the photos I took today @ the Dead Sea Scrolls Exhibition.
And Ive yet to upload them............................................................ BEST.

When I calmly asked her to leave my room. SHE BLATANTLY, with NO SENSE OF PAISEHNESS AT ALL, lied on my bed............ ......... Ok, she just walked out of my room uttering a "Petty" under her breath after I ignored her. Well, I'm pretty sure she rather me not speak to her......... (JESUS. This is when YOUR GRACE COMES IN.)

Ok, when I go have the luxury of time and mood (Willingness plus ability, you see) again, I'll add the thank-you messages. Goodnight.

(But some of the photos from the exhibition spoke alot to me :( :( :( )

Hi how are you doing.

2009-07-12T12:29:00.004Z

"Nonsense," she returned, "nonsense. This will pass in no time."
"Never, Estella!"
"You will get me out of your thoughts in a week."

"Out of my thoughts! You are part of my existence, part of myself. You have been in every line I have ever read, since I first came here, the rough common boy whose poor heart you wounded even then. You have been in every prospect I have ever seen since on the river, on the sails of the ships, on the marshes, in the clouds, in the light, in the darkness, in the wind, in the woods, in the sea, in the streets. You have been the embodiment of every graceful fancy that my mind has ever become acquainted with. The stones of which the strongest London buildings are made, are not more real, or more impossible to be displaced by your hands, than your presence and influence have been to me, there and everywhere, and will be. Estella, to the last hour of my life, you cannot choose but remain part of my character, part of the little good in me, part of the evil. But, in this separation I associate you only with the good, and I will faithfully hold you to that always, for you must have done me far more good than harm, let me feel now what sharp distress I may. O God bless you, God forgive you!"

-Great Expectations, Chapter 44.

It has been harder than I thought it would be. I wonder how you are doing. I pray that everything is great for you now. I cannot help but to admit that I do think of you every now and then. :( Take care, my friend. :')

Justified.

2009-07-12T11:50:00.003Z

称義 Justified (Hokkien) - Words & Music by Karen Lim (translated from Mandarin) - Praise & Worship

;) It's in Hokkien. Hahahaha, but it's an awesome song. Cant find the Chinese version though :(

You will complete Your work in me.

2009-07-02T03:28:00.003Z

Dontcha just luvvvvv afternoon papers? :D :D :D Not having to wake up groggy and unwillingly after you just a bitter 3 hour sleep (Or nap, for that matter of fact) ? :D

I don't know how my results for BT2 will turn out, considering the fact that I'm really ultra unprepared. Like super. Much less than I thought I would prepare myself. But for one thing, I would NEVER. NEVER ever regret going to HISTORY MAKER. (instead of preparing myself for BT in SINGAPORE) Because HM has been sucha tremendous blessing to me and I know it is a turning point of my life. What Ive received during that camp is ..... just so amazing that I cannot think of any word to describe it.

And I know that alongside with the mountain of blessings Ive received in the camp, I had received wisdom. To study SMART and not just study hard. I know that the Holy spirit will be my guide :) Which is already proven in my life already, considering the fact that I only chose to study COP and Market Structure only to find out (only) the next morning that THESE are the ONLY two topics for micro tested.!!!!

SO AMAZED to know that because I know that His footprints are SO EVIDENT in my life, and will continue to be!

Ok! I really should be bathing now.!! Ive a paper later! Holy Spirit please guide me cause I just finished the book yesterday! (Okay, not really the book. The summary of the book? sparknotes.com My best friend online.) LOL

Whatever it is, be my results good or bad this time, I know that everything will work out for my good :) Because You are with me, Your favour will be upon me just like how favour was upon Joseph's life. (And Your word is so evident especially when Monday's devotionals was about Joeseph!! GOSH!!! Can it be any clearer!?!?) :D :D :D

With thankfulness, I sing.

2009-06-26T20:18:00.002Z

I thank You Daddy that it is only in my weakness that Your grace can flow. And I thank you Lord that my life is not my own because You have planned it out even when I was in my mother's womb.

I thank you Lord for the destiny that Youve placed in my life, and I thank you that today is only the beginning. And the path of the righteous shines BRIGHTER and BRIGHTER unto the perfect day.

Thank You for HM6 and the people youve put in my life, churchmates or not. Thank you :) :) :)

I'm gna look back at today and tell myself, "Wow! God has REALLY transformed me from glory to glory!!" Praise God! :D

If you know that it kills me,

2009-06-12T19:00:00.002Z

would you then tell me the truth?

Anyhoooooooooooooooooow, TWO more days! And Im going for 5 bucks manicure tmr. MUHAHAHAHA :) :) :) :) :)

Yes it's true, and I believe it.

2009-06-11T19:39:00.006Z

HISTORY MAKER 2009!!!!!!!
CANNOT WAIT!!!! Highlight of the year, please. (Highlight-er than A levels, definitely.) :)

OMGGGGGGGGGGGG:D :D :D :D :D :D HAHAHHAHAHA. The hotel is damn nice!!!! :D :D :D

I pray we will be using this Ballroom!!! :D :D :D So purrrrtyyyy :)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Im damn happy!!!! And Excited!!!! :D :D :D

Going to Malacca for HM2009 > Studying in Singapore. HAAHAHAHAHAHA Noobs :D
HAHAH:)

COUNTDOWN: 4.

2009-06-09T18:10:00.004Z

Hahahaha, it's really funny. How more and more people are charmed by SG. It used to only be me and people thought I was crazy. Lol. But it all boils down to Him, really. It's really the glory of God and the anointing in him that attracts all the girls. Hah, but really. :) If my God make miracles for him, he can (and will) make miracles for me. :D

Abraham offered his only son to God, and God blessed him with as many descendants as the stars in the sky and the sand in the seashore.
And Jesus multiplied the five loaves and two fish to feed thousands and even had leftovers.

Thus, He can surely bless the little time I have and multiply it such that I will have more than enough. Because those who seek Him first will never be the last :)

Just as i am i come before you
With no pretense,
I draw near
You made a way through the cross
My redemption's secure,
My saviour

If not for your grace,
How can i stand
To worship you
With my heart and strength

Yours is the name above all names
Every knee shall bow
Every tongue proclaim

Yours is the name i live to praise
Jesus, worthy is your name
Jesus, worthy is your name

David and Goliath

2009-06-05T16:57:00.002Z

1 Corinthians 1:27
27But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty;

Exactly what I needed. Thank you very much :)

Guitar tmr, finally. Wheeeee :)

Because you will always use the least.

2009-05-30T17:02:00.003Z

Even when I fall,
Even when I think I cannot,
Even when I think I do not deserve it,
You never fail, Abba.

You never fail to encourage me.
You never fail to remind me of Your grace.
You never fail to put me at the right place, at the right time.
You never never never fail to show me testimonies which will add to my faith.

I cannot wait for camp.!!!! :) :) :)

Because in my weakness, in where Your grace will super abound. Thus, when I am weak, then I am strong. Amen :)

(Blogger's auto-save rocks. I would have been super frustrated without it. Praise God :) )

Computer - Bane of my life.

2009-05-25T15:28:00.003Z

What I did to the clothes I bought in the Flea. Awesome ;)

Putting "Amazing" back to Grace.

2009-05-24T14:31:00.003Z

Randomly found a video on youtube which is about a sermon by a pastor defaming grace and claiming that it's "cheap grace"

Hello?!?! Grace is not cheap. Grace is NOT cheap, please. It is BOUGHT with the blood of Jesus. How can it be cheap? Excuse me, 39 stripes and the crucifixion NOT CHEAP LOR. You try la.!!! Bet you cannot even survive past the 39 stripes can.

So disappointed. I respected him lor. :(

Lord of all my days.

2009-05-21T15:50:00.002Z

You thought everything was going to change, didnt you? And now you found out that everything was just a fraud. Hah. Told you to beware. Told you to not keep your hopes high. Told you to guard your heart.

Whatever it is, thank God that we discovered earlier. Thank God for His grace in our lives. You will protect us, Daddy :) You've hid us under the shadow of your wings :) Thank you. :)

Bee double dee double dah

2009-05-19T13:37:00.002Z

"Zen!! Your dark circles very dark. From far look like panda!!"

:( Omg, it's 8pm now. Bed time!! Bye!

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Kiddddinggggggggggggggg. HAHAHA.

Very sad la. :( Im gna miss 17.5 hours worth of Econs lessons b/c of church camp :( Panicked when Miss Hon announced it just now because i know I need the 17.5 hours. &17.5 hours is a long time you know. Tsk. I dk how. But Youre gna multiply my 17.5 hours. Somehow. Somehow. I dont know how. But Youre gna do it. For me. I just know.

Because I'll fall fast.

2009-05-17T14:47:00.002Z

She's so serious about it, it scares me.
Just don't let them be false hopes, please.

PLAY PLAY PLAY 23 MAY!!!!!

2009-05-16T16:39:00.004Z

I CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS COMING WEEK TO COME!!! Everything is gna be so exciting!!!
"Studying" @Anchorpoint, PLAY @SENTOSA, plus the RedRain Concert!! Woo hoo woo hoo woohooooo.

And church camp's COMING!!! YAY YAY YAY

My life rocks. ;)

OH! And it helped that I'm done with memorising Chem Spa Skill A!! Woohoooo!!! :) :) :) YAY!!!! HAPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYY :)

AND I CANT WAIT GETTING MY GUITAR!!
And there's church camp!!! (I know I said this)

HAHAHAHA. Thinking about these made me happy the whole nighttttttttttttttttttt :) :) :)

Falling - Pocket full of rocks

2009-05-16T16:37:00.001Z

Father it remains to me a mystery
Why You still love me
When You see the bad in me
You show me mercy
You show me grace
You call me Your own

Day by day I'm finding out, just a little more
Just exactly what the journey is for
It is to love You, hold You, touch You,
to call You my own, my own

And I trade treasure, I trade fame, just to hear You speak my name
I've been touched by You and I will never be the same
I will never be the same for

I am falling more and more in love with You my King
My heart sings a song that even angels cannot sing

Father it remains to me a mystery
Why You still love me, when You see the bad in me
You show me mercy
You show me grace
And You call me Your own

Day by day I'm finding out, just a little more
Just exactly what this journey is for
It is to love You, hold You, touch You, to call You my own, my own

And I trade treasure, I trade fame,
just to hear You speak my name
I've been touched by You and I will never be the same
I will never be the same for

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Now, if only this song is available on Youtube. Or the web. :(
I cant seem to find it :(

What makes the world go round.

2009-05-14T16:51:00.001Z

Maybe she's right. The temptation of money is indeed enticing.

To love again.

2009-05-13T18:18:00.004Z

Like the hands of Big Ben moving in anti-clockwise motion
I witness in her eyes, the anticipation
To love, and be loved
I apprehend in her prattles, her infatuation
With a stranger she thought she knew
For the first time, I saw her in solitude

She retreats while she progresses,
On sinking sand she escalates.
Beware my darling,
Lest you plunge harder than before.

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Because mum, I'm afraid for you.

Do I or do I not.

2009-05-12T17:55:00.001Z

The little-lestest things that make me smile :)
(Anything but the math test tmr)

Everything in it's time.

2009-05-10T13:11:00.006Z

Steamboat + Stayover @ Crosby's house!

MY FAV PHOTO!!!!!!!!! THIS PHOTO ULTRA CUTE!!!!!!!!! And the colour of the pic's awesome!!!! Yay, cool like the photographer :D (HAHAHA, okay, kidddingggg :)

Didnt know they cam-whored with my phone!! Haha :)

Eh, nice picture pls!! :)

I swear the focus was not on me, but on everybody else. I wanted to capture what everyone was doing lor!!! HAHAH

So yea, enjoyed the monopoly part most! :D Okay, little secret: It was the first time I played monopoly till the "buy-sell" property part. Nooooooooob right. I know. But that was because when I was young, I was taught to play the wrong way. Like you can build yr houses or hotels without even owning the whole series. Tsk, so Im not THATTTTTTTTTT noob okay!! At least I got own house before lor!! Hahahaha :)

Yay, love you people :)
And HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY LING SZE AN :D
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10 May Sunday

Serena van der Woodsen: I, I called you. Blair it's Sunday morning. Coffee, croissants, Breakfast at Tiffany's - it's our tradition.
Blair Waldorf: Well I have new traditions now.

No, really. This is how I feel. I dont want to be doubtful about the "different seasons" thing I was told about. Thus I will trust in You. For in You, all things hold together :)

Yay I cant wait for May 23!!! :) :) :) :) :) Sentosa, picnic in the morn, beach vball, captain's ball, Cg fellowship, worship in the stars. How exicitng how exciting!! 13 more days!! :) Woo hoo woo hoo.

So yeap, while I didnt not had my breakfast at Tiffany's, I had my brunch at the Waffle Cottage @Suntec! :)

With my cousin :)

Luvly place :)

"Waffle burger" meal. Forgot what it's really called. Lol.

Holy Comm!! Ultra cute can!! They made indiv. package for the blood and the biscuit because of swine flu. I like!! Jelly container so cute :)

Ahh, I'm tireddddd. Thank God thr's no school tmr :) I can study for my math test on Wed!! Praise God yay :)

Back to basics.

2009-05-08T18:17:00.003Z

2:18 in the morn, staring at the comp screen. Two hours ago, I promised myself to study before I sleep. What a joke. Lol.

Ohhhh I went to Holland V for the first time in my life today!!! (I know, loser. Thanks. Lol) Omg, I think Holland V is an ultra cool place!!! Interesting leh! :D
Dining at Crystal Jade's Ala Carte Buffet sucks. I thought only the xiao long bao was good :(

Oh oh oh!! And right, MY DOG CAME BACK!!!!! My dog went missing like a month or a month half ago. :( ( I KNOW!!!!FOR THE THOUSANDTH TIME RIGHT!!!) I thought my dog hated us :(

He managed to escape cause my mum always forget to close the gate!! :( :( :( So right, the previous times he went missing, we always manage to find him back within a week. But this time, thr was no news after so long, and so we gave up hope :(

But right!! MY MUM, being the comical mum, saw this owner with a mini schnauzer today, went to stop the owner and asked if she could check if it's her dog. AND GUESS WHAT!!!! It is!!!! Hahahahahah yay!!!!

Omg can you believe it!! Im elated!!!!! Yea, my dog's "recognizable" because he has this scar on his scalp, and it's like his....erm, special feature. LOL. YAY HI CHARCOAL! YOU'RE BACK!!

There's something about Charcoal this time that I feel different about. Having deprived of his presence in these 1-1.5 months, I think my love for him grewwwwww. I must treat him nicer and play with him more often!! Yay, he so freaking cute :)

So absence does make the heart grow fonder ;)

Ok, Im tired. Millennia walk + Xby house tmr :) :) :)

Plan and purpose.

2009-05-06T16:09:00.003Z

No, you and I, we'll learn from this. I take back my words. I will not lose hope. I will be strong.

Right time, right place. You will guide me, Lord. We will do it together.

Heart Stringsssssss

2009-05-02T18:03:00.003Z

Am gonna save up to buy a guitar :) Probably a second hand one first. Or maybe a lower end new guitar. I'm gna check them out tmr @Peninsular Plaza!! Yay :)

And "Depends on what you really want" is a such a versatile answer.

Q: "Classical or acoustic?"
A: "Depends on what you really want"
(Ive chosen acoustic though :) )

Q: "Laminated top or solid wood top?"
A: "Depends on what you really want"

Q: "How much does a normal guitar cost? Like not so ex, lower end ones."
A: "Depends on what you really want"

Omg. And it's not just from one person. The whole world gives to same answer, please!! LOL.

Wah but v scared, later the person ask me some qns I cfm dont know how to answer one. Eg, "What do you really want?" Shuckssssss. Paiseh know. LOL. OK BYE

Not getting healed, but HEALED!!

2009-05-01T16:08:00.004Z

Pictures from a century ago :)

:) A concerning question (Is this grammatically correct? LOL) from a friend makes my night :) This is as simple as it gets. I get happy easily. :) Which is good I suppose :)

Hah, I was reading my old posts and I didnt change much lor I swear!!! The "Im-lukkinn-at-euu-photo", the one which made Sinzxzx and Sween discriminate me during GP lesson, was one in a million lo, really!!!!! C'mon la!! I'm not lianzxzxzx one kay! HAHHAHAHAH.

So yea, CG today!! We played block catching yay! George me and Jo are pros! Yay yay yay us! And my ears are not healing! Because they're healed! Yay amen!!! :) :) :)

Oh!!!!! And I went Far East today!!!!!! HAHAHA!!! Bought super nice stuffs!!! And like really really super nice!!! But sadly, they're not for myself >: (

AND I SAW YUNTING AT FAR EAST with a GUY! She was like on the up-riding escalator, while I was going down. And I went like, "Eh bluff me say no boyfriend!!!" The best part, she gave that guilty-sheepish smile. You exposed yourself, dude!!! HAHAHA. (Yunting, you die. I think Joyce knows the existence of my blog. LOL. Christina also :D ) And please I don kill me. HAHAHAHAHA

Ok, this post is too narrative.

OMG YAYYYYYYYYYY MY SIS JUST TOLD ME THAT MY MUM'S GNA GET HER A NEW CAMERA. YES YES YES CAN FREE RIDE YAY YAY YAY. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ok bye. :)

And I wna buy a guitarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Cause I wna learn!!!! A second hand one first, maybe? Cheap deals, anyone? :(

Yay

2009-04-30T17:54:00.003Z

Yay new layout :) LOL. Can't believe what the heck I'm doing. Making myself a new layout instead of studying. Lol.

Oh gawd, my ears hurt. And it's like there will be a sharp piercing pain now and then, esp when I sneeze. Ouch, wtheck srsly. :( And to top it up, it's causing me headaches. Damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

But yay, now that my skin has no more navigations, people will not not be able to find the tagboard. And they can tag! Yay, so tag ok!

Ok bath time goodnight.

OD cute.

2009-04-28T15:01:00.003Z

Oh gawd, I dno what Im feeling. Im elated, but at the same time disappointed. Elated for other people, but disappointed in myself :(

Sigh, but whatever. He is going to be my strength and my providence.
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So today was the last training day :( And tmr will officially be our last match tgt. :(
Ahhhh ok, tinge of sadness now. :(

I'll never regret joining vball. Never. I learnt so much here, really. Thank you guys. And given another choice, I will still join SAJC vball. Thank you for being the best team ever :) Steadyyyyyyyyyyy, ACE!! Love you all :(

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For it is He who gives me the willingness and ability to do all things. Thank You Jesus.

They can live their lives how ever they want to. But as for me and my life, I will live it to its fullest. And Jesus, you'll be my guide, every step that I take. :)

Flea fly mosquito!

2009-04-25T12:49:00.006Z

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!! My first trip to the flea market! :) Was totally looking for steals! And I only brought 30 bucks (Including allowance for food which cost me like 7.50 already.) can you believe it!! :) HAHAA Guess how much is my total buy! :)

Msa and her new short hairrrrrrrr :)

Chen complained that we look too white in this photo. But c'mon, it's once in a lifetime I look so fair, baby!

<3 sinzxzxzxz :)

Why so glum? :(

AND NOW MY BUYS!!! :D :D: D (No, I swear the photos dont do them justice. Really.!!)

$1 belt!!!
:D Steal!! :D New piece, I think. I bought it cause it's 1 buck :) And it's......quite nice. :D

5 bucks!!! LOL. My most expensive buy! Hahahahaha. New piece!!! :) Pretty floralsssssss. Luv. :D

$3!! :D :D :D Preloved though. Looks nicer in real life, I swear. And of good material yay!!!
It was supposed to be 4 bucks. And I would get it even if it's $4. But as I was contemplating if I could fit into the shirt, the person reduced the price. I didnt even aak! Yay free favours!! :)
(And yes, I can fit into the shirt. Im not fat yay!!! :D :D :D)

Top + Bottom 3 bucks each!!!!! :D :D: D Woo hooooo. Top is new. Skirt is preloved though.

I dont like the buttons. Im gna remove them!! And the buttons I bought the other time at chinatown will finally be of use ;) Yea baby.!!! 3 freaking bucks yo. Luv the sleevesssssssss :)

The seller of the skirt claimed that she bought that vintage skirt at $30 plus bucks at some dno what place. (USA?) The threads are coming out at the bottom, but it's not a problem. I have a grandmother who loves me ;) (Thank God :) )

Yay. Cheap thrills happy deals satisfied girl! :D

So yes, have you calculated? My buys amount up to $15 bucks!!!! :D :D :D 5 items 15 bucks!! 1 item avg 3 bucks yay!! :D :D: D I rock! I'm going again next week to support Louisa's stall!! :D :D :D

Yay. Yay. Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. :)

I WNA PLAY TENNIS!!!!!!

Falling too fast.

2009-04-23T16:08:00.005Z

I thought maybe I should to tell you that your problem is not that you've lost your ability, you just lost your confidence. But ................ Nevermind. Let's just hope you'll see this and know it's you Im talking about.

And as a friend, I just want to tell you that you're awesome and you should really really really have more confidence in yourself. If you can't have more confidence in yourself, at least have confidence in God. I know you can. Go go, all the way :) Rooting for you, friend! :)

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Guard my heart, Lord. I dont want to fall too fast. :(

http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_a7jkcMVp5Vg/Sep4nxiKPhI/AAAAAAAAIsU/Y5sQApkJAD4/s1600/sfu.jpg
LOL. This is utterly hilarious.

God above all my hopes and fears

2009-04-21T17:36:00.003Z

Awesome day awesome news awesome people awesome ice cream awesome seniors-coincidentally-all-wear-red-peshirt-day:)

And tmr will be better. Amen :)

Oh yea, my mum kinda warned me that this would be the last time she'll receive a parcel (YAY MY STUFF FROM F21 ARRIVED!!) to my house. The next parcel she receives, she'll shred whatever that's inside. (Doubt so, if she was to receive the next parcel, it'ld be bangles. You cant shred bangles, can you?) I kinda interpreted it as: Please REMEMBER to write Sweeney's address instead of your own address the next time you do shopping online.

Goodnight. 3 am in the morn.

Your arm is mighty to save.

2009-04-19T17:08:00.002Z

Judges 6:14-16 (New King James Version)

14 Then the LORD turned to him and said, “Go in this might of yours, and you shall save Israel from the hand of the Midianites. Have I not sent you?”

15 So he said to Him, “O my Lord, how can I save Israel? Indeed my clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my father’s house.”

16 And the LORD said to him, “Surely I will be with you, and you shall defeat the Midianites as one man.”

Because my God always uses the weakest and the least and transform them into a mighty man. He always uses the weakest and the least so that they can glorify His name. Praise God :)

You are my shepard, You know me by name

2009-04-19T13:49:00.004Z

Wtheck.
fi i reve dnif tuo taht er'uoy gnikat egatnavda fo ym retsis, ll'uoy eb daed, ouy hctib.

My Gawd seriously, I can so honestly feel that you're manipulating everyone, and twisting their words. What's the problem with you? The innocent smile and the coy "Hi"s. Stop putting an act already, bitch.

Ok shucks. Her problem is my problem, is Your problem. HELP HER LORD!!!!!!!
And honestly, why am I involved in their juvenile drama?!!! Shuckssssssssssssssss.

Daddy God, I thank You that You are her shepard, and You know her by name. You carry her in Your arms. Lead her out of the wrong path, Lord.

Ok. Econs test. Focus, focus. Damn it.

(Because my dear, friends dont judge friends :( )

Team of 14 :)

2009-04-17T18:30:00.002Z

One for all, all for one. Go Saints, we can do it :)

"We've lost the battle, but not the war." -Christina Tang (Surprising enough? :D )

2009-04-14T16:04:00.001Z

Crazy bitch.

2009-04-12T14:13:00.001Z

CHURCH CAMP CHURCH CAMP CHURCH CAMP!!!!

June. Freaking long. Damn.

d.n.i.w.e.r

2009-04-12T04:25:00.005Z

This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

Amazed at how easily I can be appeased. But still, Thank God :)

2009-04-11T19:03:00.000Z

Big dreams, Humongous God.
Happy Easter :)

2009-04-10T18:07:00.000Z

God is my victory and He is here.

Worship at Your feet.

2009-04-04T15:36:00.003Z

Today, I received confirmation for something that has been in my heart for a long time. Praise You Jesus :) I know that my dream will come to past. Because you have put this seed in me and You WILL provide everything for the seed to grow into a tree. Amen :)

If there is something to celebrate about, it can only be You, Jesus :) I see my As waiting for me already. And it would not be because of me, but by Your grace. You will give me the willingness and ability to study to obtain my As. Amen :D

I am the righteousness of God through Christ Jesus. :)

Romans 8:34-39

³⁴ Who is he who condemns? It is Christ who died, and furthermore is also risen, who is even at the right hand of God, who also makes intercession for us.
³⁵ Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? ³⁶ As it is written:

“ For Your sake we are killed all day long;
We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.”^c]">[c]

³⁷ Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. ³⁸ For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, ³⁹ nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

You know you love me

2009-03-23T19:25:00.003Z

Gossip girl at 3.30 in the morning, with an Econs paper tmr?!?!?! Omg, this is crazy. I am crazy.! BYE!!!!!!!!!!!

I can do all things through Christ who loves me and as Christ is able to concentrate on his studies (If he was studying), so will I be able to do so in this world! Amen!! Hahaha!

xoxo. (LOL)

So distant.

2009-03-18T11:02:00.003Z

Daddy, only You can give me the discipline to study, only You can un-suffocate me. HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Ahhh, I super have no mood to study.

This cant go on.

Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

2009-03-16T17:09:00.006Z

Same vest!! Jinx!! :D :D :D

I needa stop doing whtever things that are distracting me from studying. Like surfing the net, online window shopping, learning new DIY tips. Stopppppppp ittt zomg. :(

Im excited for tmr :)

At least my holiday is rather interesting :)

Sun: Church
Mon: Library (Wenhui T) :D
Tues: Hanging out with Mel!! + Training
Wed: Sentosa with team!
Thurs: Study + Delifrance lunch with WH!
Fri: I SHALL STUDY!!!!!!!!!
Sat, Sun: Church!

Okkkkkkk busy busy busy. I got to finish studying for econs before hols end. How am I gna do that..............

OMG OK!!!! GOOD NEWS! I JUST CHECKED MY TIMETABLE!!!!!! And Ive got no paper on mon which means I can study on mon!!! YES. I shold be able to finish by then? :D YES yay PRAISE GOD Ooooooooooooooooo and paper is at 1 pm whhich means i can sleep late on monday night. YES praise God.

Omgggggggggggggggg OK YOU CAN SURVIVE THIS ZEN!!! Im going vivo tmr so exciting! F21. Damn it Im broke how.

My mum says if I continue shopping, she's not bringing me to bangkok at the end of the year. Ok now I should really stop. Or..................I should master the art of hiding my newly bought items from her. :)

This is bad. This is really an addiction.

(Omggggggg. Youtube totally helped me discover that Ive a thing for guys who can sing.!! Zomg.)

Potential.

2009-03-15T14:08:00.002Z

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

- Marianne Williamson

And I will fall at Your feet.

2009-03-13T17:23:00.002Z

Omg can you imagine HOW SUAKU I AM.!!! I AM EXCITED ABT GOING TO TOWN TMR!!! And what's with the consistent urge to spend? What's with it!!! Omgggg Im going thrift/window (hopefully) shopping tmr Omgggggggggggggggggg.

Im like cooped inside this stupid cage for so freaking long and now it's the holidays yay woohoooo hahahha.

Oh shit. Damn it. It's not even the A levels yet. Long way more to go :(

Anwwwwww I really really enjoyed CG today. Many more to come! :D :D :D

2009-03-13T04:23:00.002Z

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Disappointment
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Got this from Mel/Chante's blog :) (Yes, Ive been secretly stalking your blogs :D Heh :) )

S.U.M.O - Shut Up, Move On.

2009-03-12T14:41:00.004Z

It was never about me, never about my capability or incapability. It has always always always been about how You will guide me through my trials.

Block test 1 just makes me think that I should study 7 days per week, 24 hours per day.

Ah, no point worrying (which I am not :) ) Life goes onnnnnnnnnnnnnn. It's a cycle. You fall, you get up, and move on.

Next Stop: Block Test 2.

The Blessing Song.

2009-03-09T16:41:00.002Z

I think I gave up. No, wait. Correction. I don't care anymore. For it shall be my God who will take care of it for me. :) I just want to know that you're okay. And you obviously are. So that's fine :)

Keeps getting better. :)

2009-03-04T14:34:00.005Z

Hellllloooooooooooooooooo.

Im like bruised all over >:( But I had fun while training!! :) :)

I love it when it all gets better. When we are not tensed up, when we relax, everything gets better. But I wouldnt have done it without you, Jesus :)

My stuff from online has arrived!! :) :) :) <3 :D

2009-03-02T15:28:00.001Z

Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha. I conquered integration. Beat that ;)

If not for Your grace.

2009-03-01T16:06:00.001Z

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

So. very. true.

I will not trust
my arm of flesh
upon Your word
I stand.

Stregth.

2009-02-27T16:40:00.005Z

<3 <3 <3 The little things that make me smile :)

The little princess's birthday. 22 Feb 2008 :)

Omg. You know when it's friday, you just want to sit in front of the comp and like chilllllll? And I didnt study at all today omg >:( Okkk tmro kay! (Ok, procrastinate more. Cmon...) Ahhhhh I feel so guilty now :( Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :( :( :(

Anw I can't wait for the things that I bought online to arrive!! :) But Ive a hunch that my mum might probably kill me if she sees them cause I bought like SOOOOO many things and I keep complaining to her that I dont have money. :X (Complain only ok! Never take extra $$ hor! :D ) Like let's see.... a vest, this acidic jeans, er, this top, and and and oh! The leggings. Omg. Imagine if they all arrive at the same day. THE MAILBOX cfm cannot fit so many things lor. Omg. How am I gna get the mailbox key from her? Hmmm..... Omg.

Which reminds me. The letter of results for MSA should be arriving soon as well. If I can get the key............. heh heh heh :D :D :D ^^ ^^ ^^

Tmr Im gna go for the church jc cluster outing. And then Im gna mug. Mug. Mug. Mug. PLEASE ZEN MUG!!! BT1 !!!

Omg :( I dk how man. Srsly. I dk how am I gna survive BT1, survive lit, survive GP. But Daddy, I shall now put all these areas of concern in to Your hands and You will take care of them for me. You'll gv me the strength to study. Amen :)

:) :) :)

And srsly, with LWZ, how the heck am I gna get at least a B for my GP. I need to do sth for myself. Like read broader perspectives, maybe? Yea. And start reading those reading packages. For real.

Ahhhhhhhhhh omg :( :( :( JUST. 8. MORE. MONTHS. You. Can. Do. It. Go. Go. Go. :(

Like a seed, waiting to grow into a tree :)

2009-02-20T15:18:00.008Z

:) :) :) Im okay already! :D (At least for now )

This might be a rough week, but Im glad I ended it off nicely :) And it has to be your grace Lord :)

Guess what I did today guess what I did today!! :) :) :) School ended at 12.

Played badminton (and some other sports in between...) from about 12:45-12:50 all the way to 3:30? (Yea, kinda :D)
Physical training: Ran for 20 mins and 27 milisecs non-stop as a team :) I think it was 3.2 km, if Im not wrong. It's either 2.8 or 3.2 :D
Played this catching-like thing! Damn fun!!!!!!!!! But tiring!! But more fun than tiring!!!! :D :D :D
Did 3x30 jumps!
3 sets of phantom chair (CAN DIE I TELL YOU!!!!)
3 sets of the bridge thing! You know the one train abs one!! I prefer this to the chair, srsly!! Check out my abs now! (HAHA! I know! Who am I kidding right! Tsk! Dont like that la!! Give face la!! )

Omgzxzxzz yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. I dont feel fat now! Hahahaha!!!

Thank you Chen Sinx Mar Karen Jud Pris Chris for the advice / talks / encouragement for the past 2/3 days. Really appreciated it alot alot alot! :) :) :) Im like............alot better know. Like seriously! :) :) I cant promise I wont feel down again the next trng, but I promise I will like...............I dno la. Whatever. Hahahahahahahaha. I'll trust God for the strength ok :) To praise Him no matter what happens :)

:) :) :) Running produces endorphins.................which make me feel good :) :) :)

And sinx mar chen, you 3 are my daily endorphins!! :D :D :D :D (Not in thatttttttt way. HAHAHAHAHA) <3

Peeeeeeektures!!! Yea, finally ;)

Louisa! :) Tired but happy :D :D :D

Chen you ultimate cute!! :)

Check out that hot butt :) HAHAHA!

HAHAHA! DAMN FUNNY. The J1s had girls' talk today (why last time dont have ah?! I want leh! They say interesting!!) and got free tampons -.- So we decided to try out the tampon's capacity (?) AHAHAH.

&Yunting's tampon was like....... it had SAJC VBALL written on it in red initially. (Dont ask me why. HAHAHAHA) So we poured water on it, and. OMG. The tampon expanded to like.....super big! HAHAHAHA. (Refer to Fig 1) Ok, too much econs. HAHAHAHAH. Rather gross, lol!!!! But the red ink part was rather unintended........ LOL!

Love you all la :) <3

(OMG! WTHHHHHHHHHH!!! I typed a rather long &TOUCHING (HAHA) thank you post to the J1s vballers and IT JUST SUDDENLY DISAPPEARED. OMG EMOZXZXZ ALREADY LA. LOL! AIYAAAAAAAA damn irriated. Nvm. -.- RAHHH!!)
Whatever la. Retype tmd. But not as much feel alrdy lor. Tsk!

J1 vballers, if you all happen to see this, you guys are the motivation to stay and to press on till season ;) Cause the way I saw us bond today during physical was.........indescribable. :)

Maybe cause Ive never been in a team, never felt so......... (Idk?) But whatever it is, I (think I'm) staying :) Even if it's just to pick up balls :) Cause I it's my way of supporting you all! Better get into TOP4 and dont let me down ok ok ok!! :) :) :)

I might not be experienced, or might not learn super speed (Srsly Karen, WHATS YOUR SECRET FORMULA! Share share la! Dont selfish la!! HAhahahha. Kidddding!!!!) but Jud says I learn quite fast and Jud doesnt lie. So yayyyyyyyyyyyyy :)

I just have to study hard before training and chiong after season. Whatever happens, my God will lead me through right right right? Right.

(Aiyo :( I wrote alot of things. I forgot already :( Very saddddd la! > :( Stupid.)

&afterall, you're my wonderwall.

2009-02-19T14:53:00.004Z

Omg wth freaking stop crying already. This must be the 10 millionth time youre crying in the past 3 days. Honestly, I amaze myself. I thought I had no more tears. LOL!!!

But it keeps haunting me. It wont go away.....................

(Honestly, why the hell do I care? ..............................? Another reason why I amaze myself - I don't even know myself.)

I dont think.. Im okay.

2009-02-18T16:29:00.003Z

^Up for grabs!!! ;)

Im still in an internal conflict. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I wanted to do a proper blog post. But it's late. And.......................... I .............. dont wna think about it already. Sigh :'( Just give up already, won't you?

Thank chew sinzxzxz :) I lubb chewzxz :)

2009-02-15T16:45:00.000Z

Hi bloggy. Dont die. I'll try to blog tmr. I got my new pink pixon already. Love :)

Pixon ;)

2009-02-11T15:06:00.003Z

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY I RANDOMLY DISCOVERED THAT the phone that I want (pixon) is available in PINK NOW!! Yayyyyyyyyyy!!!!!! Omg! I KNEW there had to be a reason as to why things were so screwed up and I cant get my phone earlier!

THIS IS THE REASON :D :D :D

PTL MAN!!! I thought Pixon was good, but too boyish! And now it's in PINK ;) YAY

My God knows when to give me the right things at the right time. And this is for ALL ASPECTS of my life. Amen :D

Yayyyzxzxzx I think im finally able to buy my phone! :D Starhub sent vouchers to my home. YAY :D :D :D

Ok I go pester my mum now bye :)

(OH I RAN 2.4 today and got an A!!! YAY :D Too bad it's not the actual thing >:( )

Shop pop! >: (

2009-02-05T18:07:00.003Z

You know something is wrong when you'd rather do GP than Lit. I swear it'd be much better if I could change to Geog. Even now. Omggggzxzxzxzxz, Miss Lai was such a good teacher, I can still rmb my geog so well ok. WHY THE HELL did I take Lit in the first place. I think Im crazy. Seriously.

And I superrrrrrrrrrrrrr feel like shopping!! >: (

Eaglessssss :)

2009-02-04T16:22:00.000Z

Isaiah 40

28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Just when I needed it :)

Neh neh ni poo poo :)

2009-02-03T13:05:00.005Z

:D :D

Nevermind :) The joy of the Lord shall be my strength :) :)

Shark!!

2009-02-01T16:32:00.001Z

IM EXCITED FOR NEW FISH TMR!!! :D :D Yay!
But bye to spacious cafes and library. :(

See you next year ;)

2009-01-26T17:50:00.002Z

Happy Niuuuuuuuuuuuuu Year! :) Hello! :)

Yay, wear niu clothes! :D :D

Cny is like so hectic, like the last min cleaning, the last min shopping, the last min this, last min that. But so meaningful :) Catching up with everybody, winning money from blackjack ;) , and to FINALLY get to play mahjiong with the pro players (Aka my aunties :) )

Rahhhhhhh, but in the midst of these, there's one thought that is constantly ringing in my head: You didnt study these few days / You have not done your hmwrk. It's like HAUNTING ME. :( :( :(

Stupid A levels. YUCKS.

And yay to ang bao money! ;) ;) ;)

Imy.

2009-01-24T18:39:00.001Z

Cause you don't know what it is like to pretend to be strong and suppress the tears throughout the night.